IM JAHR 2011 LEBTE ICH EIN JAHR ALS AUSTAUSCHSCHÜLER IN DEN VEREINIGTEN STAATEN VON AMERIKA. WÄHREND MEINES AUFENTHALTES LERNTE ICH EINE FRAU KENNEN, DEREN NEFFE EINEN AMOKLAUF GEPLANT, IHN SCHLUSSENDLICH ALLERDINGS NICHT AUSGEFÜHRT HATTE. DIESES GESPRÄCH INSPIRIERTE MICH ZU PER|SPECT|IVES. MICH FASZINIERTE DIE FRAGE NACH DER PSYCHE DES TÄTERS: WAS BRACHTE EINEN JUGENDLICHEN DAZU, SEINE FREUNDE ERSCHIEßEN ZU WOLLEN? DIESES GEDICHT ERZÄHLT DIE GESCHICHTE EINES SOLCHEN JUGENDLICHEN UND VERSUCHT DABEI DIE GESPALTENE WAHRNEHMUNG DER CHARAKTERE DURCH FARBLICHE UND RÄUMLICHE TRENNUNG DARZUSTELLEN.
Once I had a dream of me meeting that girl
Once I met that guy
And talking to that girl and dating that girl
And I talked to him and dated him
And kissing her very often.
And I kissed him all the time.
I would go to the beach with her
I would go to clubs with him
Or to the theatre or the opera.
Or in his car or in his bedroom.
Wherever she’d want to go,
Wherever he wanted me,
This was the place I also wanted to be.
But dreams tend to break your heart
But then he broke up with me.
She never talked to me.
He talked to other girls.
She never kissed me.
He kissed other girls.
She never even looked at me.
He had sex with other girls.
And I was the saddest lad on earth.
And I was the saddest girl on earth.
Until that day when she started to talk to me.
And then one day, I started noticing this boy.
She talked to me during class.
We made fun of our teachers during class.
And she even talked to me during break.
And I stood next to him during break,
And I was so very happy.
Because no one else would
And I felt sorry for him.
She introduced me to her friends
I convinced my friends into letting him be around.
Who really liked me.
Nobody liked him.
And we sat together at lunch.
I let him sit next to me at lunch,
Because I felt very sorry for him.
And we started to date.
People started envying our luck
We didn’t care about them at all
One time she visited me at home
And we kissed for the first time
And I was the luckiest person on earth
I felt bad to be seen with him in public, though.
So I started meeting him alone,
When no one was around to see us.
I invited him over to my place.
After all, I was his only friend.
All my other friends were happy for us.
They made fun of us for being in love.
We couldn’t care less,
So eternally in love we’d been.
I took her to our Thanksgiving Party
And introduced her to my whole family.
My father told me how much he liked her.
He got jealous of me meeting other friends.
He wanted me to meet his whole family,
But I felt weird about coming with him
And I told him I wouldn’t come.
His dad beat him very hard that day
And I felt horrible for refusing to come with him.
We spent wonderful weeks together.
We talked and kissed a lot.
And afterwards we would talk and kiss some more.
And – she told me she loved me.
I have never been happier
I tried to be the best friend possible.
Guilt led my every action.
And I told him I love him like a brother
And he leaned in and kissed me.
And I just let it happen,
Because he was the saddest boy I’ve ever met.
He wanted to kiss me again
And I wouldn’t let him do it.
I told him to cease trying,
But he wouldn’t stop.
We had a big fight and he hit me
And I stopped being his friend.
And I was really sad
For I thought it’d be easier.
But once on a cold summer day
That’s why, on a warm summer morning,
The news reported something terrible
When everything seemed to be alright.
That I wasn’t able to comprehend
The kids in school told me it was an accident
He brought a gun to school
And that she didn’t need to suffer.
And let me look into its barrel.
But it was like a dream to me
And my heart was broken once more.
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